Absolutely, couldn't be worse in updating... So many new things have happened last months, but please, forgive me, right now there's no coming back to those things, I need to get actual stuff off my chest...
Met him by an accident, the main reason of our meeting - the mountains. Again something connected to the mountains... I don't really know if it's a blessing or a curse. An innocent conversation came to telling about our mountain trips, exchanging our experiences, even writing a stories about it with pictures enclosed...
Spontaneous conversations took place each day, on facebook of course. How I have been wishing to meet him face to face to be talking about all of this!... Once I suggested him our meeting. He said of course, but in such a weird way it was told... from me and from his side. I let go, changed the topic and moved on. But that night changed everything. There was no more such easy-going chats. Last time, on Friday - it was his birthday. I prepared two stories of my visits in Alps, hoping he could enjoy ones. And he did. Just... after that there is the silence. Yeah, it has been just two days, but after that his previous constant, spontaneous ''hey, I need to tell you something'' - it makes a big difference now.
I don't know what to think, I cannot text him first, not yet at least... We are both leaving for holidays to work abroad (not together, of course). So we aren't going to have time to meet during the summer. This means: if we don't meet in June, we aren't going to meet at all. That's what makes me want this appointment to happen sooner...
For you it might sound very stupid, I know...
I feel he is very independent and probably don't want to have anyone to distract him from all his goals.
But what's wrong in just exchanging our mountain experience? I just wanted to talk to him in real, just to feel what kind of person he is, this could help while talking by fb even later.
The problem is he is kinda cleverer than the others, it's like he read thousands of books and knows a lot about the world, has his own view at many aspects.
Stupid, I know, but so many things I would like to tell him right now... SO STUPID. I should definitely focus on my exams this month, my guests from Italy and my next month's departure to Green Island.
You know what's the worst in me? I like planning, I do too much of this!!! And later, when the plans cannot fullfil, I suffer a lot.
Blah. Thank you for letting me tell you about all my worries.
Have a good evening!
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