From the top: I had a date with a boy two weeks ago, we spent amazing about 7 hours together, mainly dancing (you realise? first date, clubbing at once) and need to admit I have never danced with anyone that well. I mean he was on my level. Usually, when I go to the party, I'm one of the best dancing girls, that's only for the music feeling, all because I love making music so that I can feel it deeply. We've got a perfect contact, it's so easy to talk to each other, we are open, honest... But he's a smoker, definitely is a part of a diffrent social group, if you know what I mean (in his young life he tried a lot of things, not only good things...). We met second time and after that I was sure I can promise him only a friendship (yes, I know how they hate this...), so I tried to give our relationship direction to rather friendly path, but when I wrote him about it, he told me it's fine, he will help me with finding the way to this real feeling - love... I forgot to mention that I also told him that after my last relationship I feel I so badly don't want another one. Just friends. I like having boys as friends, I always catch a good contact with them.
Yesterday we had our third date, when I was supposed to tell him about the lines and borders very clearly... Of course, I didn't at all. We were in the cinema, he kept giving me verbal and also words' signs that he likes me a lot. Due to the long film we didn't have too much time for talking yesterday. And I didn't become brave enough to destroy his perfect evening. Yes, for me it was an amazing one too, but I hate myself fot making him hoping.
Our next meeting is agreed after my exams. So it might be a few weeks... For that time, I'll be thinking how not to hurt him. I need to give him clear signs finally!!! God, please help. Such a big harm I can make to him...
This song describes what I should do........................
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