It's too hard

I just feel I will never get over it...
Today instead of coming and talking to One I couldn't even stand up from my chair. I felt my face was getting red and my pressure went high. But I couldn't do a movement. Not even one!
I don't know how I'm gonna live now. I wish I felt just nothing. It is all too painful. I'd love just to write to One and talk to. But how? How can I be sure One likes me at all? Maybe all those things I saw were just unreal, all and only imagined by me?
Gosh, why it's so hard for girls? We shouldn't show our feelings too much ;/
Now I really can't talk and hang out with other boys and start to I understand why I'm not totally interested in them. Coz of One.
Two years - I think it's enough to be sure all I wrote.

Life sucks.

Tough coming back to normalcy

Well, still trying to take it off my head but it's still not that easy. And it's totally not normal that it lasts so long. Anomalously long... Afraid of thinking what it means...
I'm having much of studying and much other things to do but still keep coming back to this mind!

Yeah, it's really much of learning here. When I look at my books, at once I do much different things except using those books...

The weather doesn't seem to be springer one at all. Maybe that's the reason of my mood. But maybe this is not?...

Totally confused...

Today happend something completely unexpected... While going to my locker after my lessons I saw one... The glance I was talking about I would miss was there between us... And when I was coming to the front door we shared that moment again... One was looking at all the time!
And sure there was a huge amusement in me. But about 10 minutes later, when I had already left school, I felt nothing...
I don't understand it! Did I just accept the fact that it was over? And it is done for me? Or maybe I'm just more carefull...
I can't justify it by using anything. Looks like I need to think about it again...

But, btw - for sure nothing more will happen so there's no worry :/

REally gonna do scrambled eggs now!

Sad reality

Today it was a class trip, later some hanging out with my friends.  And coming back home. And the one thought in my head... Everywhere, especially while talking to my friend about her relationship.
And the awful feeling there's not much left I can do about it.
School's tomorrow. And lessons when I'm sure I won't meet anyone special. At least not THIS one. While on Tuesday I always used to meet One at most.
Trust me, I tried to live my life alone again but I just can't. I don't know how long it is going to take me to have a clear life situation back. Just like 2 years ago...

Don't know what to do. Only wanna sing the songs like my last cover (which is placed below, in last post).
But know I need to have a smile glued to my face and be cheerful like I was even better than fine.

Take care, readers. Hope ur life looks brighter now.

New cover

Hi!
Today I made a  cover of Three Doors Down's song named "Here Without you".  It perfectly describes my mood and my feelings.
Wish someone could see this...
Yes, there's a dedication hidden between the lines.

Enjoy.

Long weekend replaced by normal weekend...

Back from the City. Need to prepare to school, for Monday. But it was really super nice there!  I was with my sis in so many places... Yeah, my feet kinda hurt but I'm glad of how it was there:)
I made a few new decisions (woah, it sounds so serious :D) that I would like to live by for next weeks.

Tomorrow sunbathing.

Have fun!:)

New month

Hi!

Yesterday I finally bought a dress for the wedding! It looks perfect; is dark orange with black elements... I love it. High heels, dark bag and my outfit is done.
It's still long weekend lasting here so for next three days I'm moving to the capital city of my province. I'll take a breath from all the problems, I guess...

Have a good time, take care readers!