Cogitation

Well, lately I met a nice boy, he is kind, smart etc... But the thought of X came back to me again... I know it was looong time ago but... I met with X for a while on first days of my university in Oct. He wasn't alone, I wasn't alone, we just shared a look on the street from the distance. But after all those our conversations, I'm sure there still must be SOMETHING. Although I have met new nice boys and he must be knowing a few perfect girls too... Our relation wasn't nothing, it was lasting long. I'm so curious how he would feel now about me... I hope we could meet one day so that I could see his reaction and figure out it all what I'm wondering about...

Christmas break

So it's finally the end of university in this year. We've got christmas break. Time for tidying, baking and then spending time with my family... How not to love it? ♥

Anyway, I'm alreaady missing my classmates... But I know it will go away in a few days :)

How are u gonna spend ur Christmas?

An idea

Thinking of making new music videos! think it will happen this Christmas break.

Can't wait to show u this!

xoxo

Snowy sunday

On Friday it snowed a little bit, now it's cold outside like -4C, sun is shining... Beautiful!

Very intensive two weeks are coming, but after that: almost 3 weeks of being at home, with family, friends etc. 

Last week I got 100 % of Math exam. Yes, ME! :D

Muy talented girl:

December

Last week - party after party. A lot of cheer and exams - fun is a good way to be better focused on learing - the less time u have for it, the faster u do it.

Since today - Advent, so now parties are out, they are coming back in less than a month, while I'll be studying hard using my time and getting prepared for coming of Jesus Baby. :)

I love my friends, I need to tell again. They make all of my days!

PS. And I really love Imagine Dragons, they are really the best! I still remember the show they made on MTV EMA... 

Party shakers

One night, a lot of people, a lot of fun, dancing, cheer, music... Boys dancing with me who wanted to get to know me, while they weren't my style.
So many smiles. So many ones from one boy. His constant passing me, smiling, touching my hand in the crowd... Beautiful blue eyes... Too much embarassment.

Now: perfect memories, hopingg for nothing as NOTHING can happen although I made everything to find Him. So sad but true :/

Next party after the Christmas? Can't wait for the next time when I'm disappointed.

Life is beautiful!

Life is so perfect when u've got ur friends around u! Studying gets cooler and u can fully enjoy living in a big city with so many opportunities. I enjoy learning new things and getting to know ew interesting people, and, finally, partying.

Nice autumn is lasting!

Lovely autumn

It's been a long time since I wrote here last time! Well, many things happened at my university, I've been really busy. Day after day I'm getting used to studying hard, to my profesors, to their requirements, I have fun with my roommates, and - thankfully, just like especially to help us (freshmen) accommodate in new life - the weather is perfect: although it's the end of October (one year and a day ago it started snowing!), it's still sunny and really warm - yesterday it was 23 Celsius degrees!...

A lot of new people appeared on my way, hope to have as much new strong friendships as possible. Of course, I cannot forget about my old friends - they helped me a lot at the beginning of this month...

Hope u r having good time in ur life, wherever u r ! xoxo

After the first week I'm exhausted and completely burnt-out... I know the beginnings are always the worst, later it's all better. Just I'm homesick again and not used to learn anymore, and not learn surrounded by the other people, when I cannot focus, in a dorm's room :/
It's really hard to start all over again... But I know  that after those 5 years there are amazing perspectives waiting for me, better life etc. And then it will be finally time to create my own family, no more studying, just working and having my friends and relatives all around me, very close to me.

I hope God will give me a lot of strength to go through it all... I will need A LOT of strength...

New beginning

Today I visited my dorm, took there my clothes and other things, got the key. Something new starts again... Only God knows how it's all gonna be. A lot of tears? A lot of pain, hurting? Fighting for my rights? Life will show us.

I hope to have good roommates as it means A LOT while studing. Dorm is supposed to be my second home now! Or sometimes even like the only one... IT's really good that I have my old, trusty friends close to me in that city, they will help me much at the beginning, I already know it. And my sis, a little bit further, but still the same city.

But God will help me mostly.

On Monday leaving home.

Home sweet home

IT's been already a week in my homeland. In a week a trip to my university city. Here we go, again something new.

 But for now - I'm enjoying last week of my loooong holidays!

P.S. This is the song of my holidays abroad! It will always stay in my mind as a memory of lovely time in S. ♥

Here we go!

2 days!

6 days! Time goes by SO fast!
And 3 weeks till my university starts...

Hope u r all ok!
xoxo

September

So if I was one year younger, I would start my school today... But I'm here, univeristy starts in a month. Can't wait to go to France this weekend!

14 days left!

Rainy (end of this summer?)

19 days. Time goes by. Miss my working out a lot, here I don't have enough time for that :(
But sooooon!

Although sometimes it is really hard in here...

Countryside

27 days to go!

Cows and goats everywhere, with lovely rings ♥

Time for new counting

So here we are. Working, trying to break our borders, fears, learning the life.

30 days do go, 2 days behind us, yay! time goes by so fast ;)

On my way

1 day to go! Adventure is waiting!

Memories

It might be strange but today I was thinking about what OneR did to pay my attention... Well, it was really a lot... It started 14th Sept last year and was cotinued for the whole 8 months... Crazy, really crazy ideas in fact :D Sad that he didn't use an internet to contact in person as in a public place he couldn't break his fears to talk... But all those sudden apearing around my class, smiles, eyes... Haha it was muy cute! He will always stay in my memory, hope we could somehow meet again one day.

5 days to go!

Big day!

World Youth Day in 2016 in Cracow, Poland!!! Yay, THANK YOU HOLY FATHER! Can't wait!!!

And thank You for wonderful time in Rio!

Running time

Days go by... Day by day my holidays before my departure are passing by. Every night I feel sooooo exhausted that I need to go to sleep not later but at the midnight. I am trying to full up the whole my time in the extreme, I guess tht's why I am with no energy in the night.

Even now I feel so distroyed that I need to go to bed soon! Although it's only 10.25 pm :O

The weather is finally adorable enough to get more and more sunburnt!

Have a good time xox




Hipnotized by Olly!

How not to believe?!

For the beginning, I need to direct u to my post which appeared on this blog a year ago.
Here it is: http://uthinkuknowthelife.blogspot.com/2012/07/sad-reflection.html .
U really need to write it before the rest of this post.

Well, today I can tell that after the whole year of hard studying I managed to get there! Now I've got different priopirities but still want to be a part of this beautiful university!

A year ago I couldn't have even supposed that so many things would happen - u know everything, u were with me on this blog all the time :)

Now I am soooo happy! But I feel the weight of the responsibility that is waiting for me since October as well... I know there will be only more hard working, I hope I won't be too bad at it...

All the bureaucracy now is killing me, but it is all for people, I NEED TO handle it!

Enjoy ur time! xoxo

PS. But with whose help was it? Of course, only with God's help!!!

The longed for results

Today I got my final exams' results. Well, I am pretty satisfied, a few exams went even better than I had expected. But, of course, it could always be better!

Rainy and cold days here. I want heat for just one day!

In love with Ryan Tedder again

It turned out to be a waste of time, I mean waiting till the summer starts... (if u know what I mean, and I guess u have no idea xD but this blog is my diary too so somethimes I write here things that only me, even after years, understand, sorry!)

Now new era of my life needs to be started, after those 2,5 years. Really new phase.

I  am enjoying my holidays waiting for final exams' results that are coming on Friday.......

God help me!

Summer!

So officially the summer has arrived. Yupi! I hope this is gonna be best holidays of my entire life!

Let's see  how it's gonna be... :)

God still keeps vigil

Hallelujah! I haven't written for a few days becoz I had some problems with my departure to work abroad. It looked really bad, as nowadays it would be really hard for me to find another family as this is very little time left till August. But today, somehow (God's help again) I reached an agreement with my hostlady and it came into a really cute conversation, I hope it all will work out and both sides will be fully glad after all this cooperating :)

Tomorrow I am going to meet with my friend again, see her sweetie little cousins again, today I even talked by the phone with them :D
They are so lovely!

Summer starts already in 3 days! Yeah!

Nice day

Hi, I am very tired, not really capable to write a lot... Although I wish I could.
But I will catch it up soon. Trust me.

Today it was beautiful, sunny day.

A lot of wondering about my future life.
8 days till the summer starts for real.

xoxo

I love children ♥

Today I had another wonderful day with my friend! (different one than yesterday) I love her cousins so much! And so do they love me, they told me! I am so happy, I feel wonderful.

But today another thought came to my head as well...

Let's wait 11 days...

xoxo

Yupi yow!

Today I had a meeting with my sweetest, loveliest friend♥ We had a great time, eating French fries (me) and burger (she)... We talked very long as we haven't seen each other for last 3 weeks!

I have finally found my job for summer! And my host family is truely lovely, I have the flight booked... Everything is so nice...

I changed the image of my blog at once after adding my last post on Friday.
Do you enjoy the new look? :)

Kisses xoxo

Hola!

I have just discovered that yesterday my blog was visited by readers from many interesting and even oriental countries. It is exciting and makes me very glad!
Thank you all that you are still with me ♥

I think it is high time to change me blog image. So stay tuned, something is coming soon!

Now I am trying to check up the website http://world.time.com/timelapse/ where we can see how any place in the world has been changing for last 30 years but actually now it is loading loading and loading!... I need to refresh it, I guess :D

Take care xox

Days of the relax filled with the activity

Heeyo guys!
I am having a really lovely time! Here I've got plenty of free time, but, in fact, all this time is taken by the things necessarily need to be done by me everyday... Well, even if we have holidays there are still many things to do and then all the free time disappears...
Although it is kinda weird! My friend cries to me via the mobile phone she has nothing to do at home now and she doesn't find it interesting to have the holidays... I guess the point is not everyone is willing to do ANYTHING. Or just she doesn't need to do any thing at home (like normal houseworks) coz all the others help her out in everything... In my oppinion, it is absolutely stupid to be just sitting at home not doing (or just trying to find sth to do) anything. I'm not such a coach potato so that I always try to find something that is needed at home to be done or just go to hang out with my acquaintances. This is totally foolish to stay at home all the weeks and not even trying to change it and be complaining all the time... :F

Ah, I wrote too much, I guess :)

Well, the other thing is I am looking for a job for the holidays (for 1-2 months) as an aupair/nanny/housekeeper abroad, I am registered on a few websites (Haven't I told u about it yet?? :/).So far I've received a few propositions but we'll see how it's gonna be.
Are u looking for a job for summer as well?

Have a great time! xoxo

I am totally ADDICTED to this song!!!!♥♥♥

Hooooooooooliday!

The longest holidays in my life has already come! ♥ Yesterday I had my last final exam and now I am free just like a bird... Many plans, only (:D) 4 months...

One and the second One are now considered by me as not good ones, at all... They make me really bored, one of them is totally childish.
I can't wait to see adult, inteligent boys on my future university in October... :D

Have a good time, I'll drop a line soon! xoxo

Exams

I keep on fighting... Totally exhausted but still with huge reserve of power.

Cross ur fingers, Readers...

Maaaaaaay

Big tests are coming pretty fast! What's it gonna be?...
I keep learning, I was  also cutting the grass, already second time this year.

Coming back to One... I don't care. I've got another interesting boys around me, if he's not resolved yet.
Phi, life doesn't end on One!

I ADORE this song and music video!!!
xoxo, Eugenia

Confused (part 2)

Yes, he texted me first, but I can still see he writing to other gs or commenting on their pics or statuses... Don't really know how to feel...
And when I think of talking to the man I lost the chance to meet officially... I know he would be all into me... And that's what I would really need. The complete certainty.
Don't feel good about it all.

Big tests are coming in a week... I hope to meet him then and show him he may feel free to do all he would like to...

Oh confusion in my life never stops :D

Reverie

I'm feeling terribily sorry to tell u nothing has changed at all... But that's becoz I didn't have any opportunity last days to ''get'' him. I've got only two last weeks left to show him I noticed him... Later we will never meet again.
Although, after last year's experience , I mustn't tell I would never meet someone... :) Even if apparently it looks like our ways are apart...

Talking about the One, I must admit I cannot talk with him by the Internet... There's no lightness which I have with any other boy I chat with on e.g. facebook. I guess it might come from the fact we don't have too much common topics coz we met only a few times, we haven't got to know each other very well.
But anyway, even if I don't know a boy too perfectly, sometimes even if I didn't meet with him at all, I don't have any problem with talking to. So what's up this time?...

A song I'm totally in love with.

Spring?

Seeing there a message everyday makes me happy, at least for a while. Still don't feel that impulsiveness but appreciate this trying to be in touch with me... Sometimes maybe the someone's character is that reserved... Coz live One has no problem in talking spontaneously.
Ah I guess I shouldn't be looking for a problem in it.. Probably that's just how girls are - look for a problem everywhere :)
So I enjoy this moment however it feels.
Just a year ago I would have dyied for such a situation I am having now...
God still keeps a vigil ♥

Spring seems to be around, finally! Can't wait those sunny days...

Btw, the boy I noticed smiling to me 7 months ago can't stop looking at me... I'm confused, knowing he is a very valuable person but... One... But there are just 2,5 weeks left at this school, I need to catch as many contacs as possible so that later I wouldn't regret not getting to know someone... I'm gonna try.
Tomorrow, I swear.

Holidays

Happy Easter, readers! :)
Hope ur one is warmer than mine (snow, about 1 Celsius degree)...
Have a good time!

Heeeeey

It's been a really long time since I was here! A month ago I wrote last post... I know it's not ok but just sometimes I don't know what to think and I'm affraid of writing anything not to distroy a thing...
Things are still happening, but I'm still not sure how much I can trust it could succeed one day...
I need to think a lot of my university, what studies should I choose... So many questions! I'm not sure if I am able to cope with all the math and science subjects... Yes, I do have extra-curricular activities now to be better at it but... it's not that easy. I wish I could be already on studies on October but on the other hand - I'm scared of it as hell.
And One... I keep thanking God for such a miracle... just meeting One was something incredible, what absolutely couldn't have happened in normal atheistic life... Hallelujah!

Confusion

It all turned amazing, looked really cool, while now... It all collapsed. I really seriously think of considering my friend's proposition (which might be the only one in my life...) about getting to know closer one boy who would like to be in touch with me... But it hurts. It all came back again and again. When I finally cured, now it's all destroying my whole life. But I knew that it wouldn't be different, I knew that if I had taken that risk, I would be going to  hurt again.
And it all came true...
It's really hard to focus on things I need to do, like studying etc.
I wish I could hide under the ground... Just stay there, survive all the pain and come back healed...
I'm affraid I will never understand that not all of the beautiful things are written for me... Just simple ones, that's coz after death there will be better ones.

Don't dream that much anymore, baby.
Life without emotions is less painful.

The big SUMMARY of 2012

It has taken me some time to make this post, I know, but still many things happen in my life.

Summing up last year:
- I went on working out for the whole year (till now), I won with all coming dejection and the laziness; it makes me really proud of myself.
- I got to know plenty of valuable people who made my life more accomplished.
- I fixed and really reinforced the relations with my old friends (especially one) - my secret wish came true!
- But also I ended a realtionship which had lasted for 3 years and ment a lot to me, but with every year the second side was only stronger torturring me, not letting me say and do what I wanted to. Indeed, this end of the line helped me a lot and set free a part of me.
- There were a few boys that appeared in my life (I wrote of them a lot); when one bounced, the another one came along but sometimes also the old ones came back with  double power. I've got really much memories (which come from that time) that still keep returning to me all the time. A lot of positive but also negative emotions appeared. But, in fact, I see it was an amazing time, I noticed feelings are really needed to us, they make us stronger and more adult person. This is astonishing to be able to feel something...
- There are about 3 or more boys that I'm still trying to daunt with their attempt to be someone more in my life. I remarked I can't flatly refuse or give someone the mitten, coz I always care too much not to hurt anyone.
- From then comes an expression by which at least two of my friends (boys) called me: ''femme fatale''...
- In my head there started to raise the awareness of what I want to do in my future life and - heading that way - I put bigger pressure on subjects as Math.
- Month by month I improve my playing the guitar skills. That year it was 4 years since I bought my first guitar!
- I got the biggest tan in my whole life but still this was not perfect...

Let's see what this year brings us... 2013, just be good to me!

Wrap-up

Summary of 2012 is coming.
Wait patiently...