Short time, many changes

I found out it was a really long time since last time I wrote here...
So starting from the most important: I had wonderful time in France, was thinking a lot and finding everyday an argument on facebook that my boyfriend was creating - getting zero support, zero saying ''I miss you'', even more after two days of his being ''hugely offended'' by me and his not saying a word to me, I decided I have enough reasons to say ''it was nice but not exactly how I consider the relationship to look like''... Of course, he was keeping telling he doesn't understand a thing, he was doing his best, he loves me etc... And what? After almost a month since I broke up with him, I feel nothing I could call a longing! Yes, I can even tell I feel hugely relieved. No one is telling me what to do. He should take over his life and start being a responsible man. He has some problems with his studies because he didn't want to study last semester, he preffered to play Fifa games or watch tv... Yes, I was more like a man in this relationship, I was like 5 years older than he. If I should have a boyfriend, he needs to be responsible of his life, till then - I can live as a single, it is no problem for me, huh, I am just 20!!! I want to meet other people, not to be closed to the others like I was for last half a year...

Last month I travelled for my practical classes for studies into the mountains and last week - the seaside! It was an amazing time with my friends! And next week I am going to Switzerland again, I am so happy for it.

I can decide about my life like I want to. You can as well! Keep it on your mind everytime. Do not forget it is YOUR life...

New voyage

Dear Readers,
Again I totally messed up with writing here... This was caused by my really busy semester... Maaaaaany things were happening... I feel I need to throw it all out of me.

So I passed all my final exams on first dates again, only thank to God.
The whole 4 months I have been dating with the same boy. Of course, for such a long time, I could have noticed a lot of things: his advantages and disadvantages too... His being jealous leaded to our first argument... It seemed really serious and I thought it was the end. But I forgave it all and we went on together.
Next months: I could have felt he feels only more confident beside me and he trusted me hugely. This his trust to me let him to act very natural; for the first times I heard him swearing and I noticed in him... a child. A big, but still child... Playing computer games, enforcing me to treat lightly my family and be coming back to the city earlier and be leavig later, to spend time with him if he needed to stay there like I was his nanny and being veeery sad if I didn't do it... (normally, he comes back home weekly). And his fear of animals (which I adore, as you know)...
Very often I feel like I AM a man in this relationship, he seems to be so sensitive! When I am dressed very...hmm, womanly - he does not notice a thing (or at least is not saying a thing like: ''you look like so nice today!''). On the contrary - he often says unpleasant words about my body figure (''just joking'') - I work out regularly, I have a body of athlete - but those words really hurt.

Summing up, I notice his being totally unadult. But I got stuck, I cannot move from this place... His family knows a lot about me and wants to meet me someday, I could not leave him now, what would the family think about me... But on the other hand, I just DO NOT want to  be leaving him. But he totally needs to be more like a man... If only I could, I would send him to an army - there he would learn everything, that he is missing...
I do not know what to do...

In 2 days I am going to France for a month. Nowadays, I am having a speed course of French done by myself, heh. This is a difficult but beautiful language. I cannot wait to get there!
And I will have soooo much time to be thinking over the whole situation described above! This is a huge plus of this travel.

Cee ya soon!

Some thoughts

I decided it's high time to write here again, sorry for such a long break.
After 8 meetings, getting to know each other, hours of walking, talking, laughing, texting and chatting on facebook we're both just more sure it's going into right direction. I like His being next to me, I like when He's talking about what happened to Him that day, I like His smile, I like our first selfie-picture... We're not spending each moment together, it's not needed yet, we want this to go step by step, not too fast, so that we can be sure that's exactly what we want to have and who we want to be with. 


He doesn't know about me writing it all here, although I'm sure we would love to read it. Time after time I let Him feel that what I think about our relation and what I mentioned above.

It might be really amazing. Just no hurry, and God please take care of us, as You connected us together...



The song from when we were leaving the cinema after our first common cinema-show...

New beginning

Well, I think it's finally time to write u something about my life, u deserve it.
Last month was full of interesting episodes... Actually, even wonderful episodes, I can tell.
Last week I passed all my semestral final exams, I'm having holidays till the beginning of March.
But most important: I met a wonderful boy. It happened suddenly and is happening unbelievable fast... Last weekend - two meetings that were truely amazing, perfectly planned by Him. This Friday - Valentine's Day - we're gonna have a next one, a special one, I guess. I cannot get used to this situation, this is so wonderful but surprising at the same time...
It's so beautiful that I'm affraid I could distroy it somehow very easy, it makes me kinda paralised making each single step in this relation.
But I know only one thing: God connected us, it wasn't exactly a coincidence we met... And I know that He will be still helping us, whatever is gonna happen.