It all turned amazing, looked really cool, while now... It all collapsed. I really seriously think of considering my friend's proposition (which might be the only one in my life...) about getting to know closer one boy who would like to be in touch with me... But it hurts. It all came back again and again. When I finally cured, now it's all destroying my whole life. But I knew that it wouldn't be different, I knew that if I had taken that risk, I would be going to hurt again.
And it all came true...
It's really hard to focus on things I need to do, like studying etc.
I wish I could hide under the ground... Just stay there, survive all the pain and come back healed...
I'm affraid I will never understand that not all of the beautiful things are written for me... Just simple ones, that's coz after death there will be better ones.
Don't dream that much anymore, baby.
Life without emotions is less painful.
