Holidays

Merry Christmas, Readers! Have an astonishing time with ur family.
Happy New Year as well, hope one brings only happiness for u. :)

Umm

Yes, it's real.
It's happening...

Never be sure something is done...

For some days (maybe weeks) I've been planning to come here and tell u about all the great things that happened lately. Today it all turned. The situation from a year ago is back. I would never expect it to be this way. (if u read my blog carefully, u know perfectly what situation I'm talking about)
I seemed to have this chapter of my life closed and the new one seemed to be starting. Now I don't know what to do.
I came here mostly to read my posts to remind myself how was the whole story going...

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I feel really awful for my not writing here for so long...
I'm sorry, guys. Soon I'll write more.

My new song

Plenty of things are happening... Hope I'll find some time to write u about it. 

For now, I made a new cover song - it's ''Wherever you will go" by The Calling. 

Enjoy! :)

The autumn

Here I go with the first autumnal post... I guess that in a month all the trees will be naked, with no leaf...

Last week made me very busy; school, driving, extra-curricular classes... But yesterday I found time for working out (it is the only way for my mind to relax, so I'd do anything just to have that one hour for training; hope today I'll do the same). 

One old friend (boy) dropped me a line last week, what made me really surprised. It was nice anyway :)

I could write here something more about my emotional life but I prefer not to, until it's more evidenced...

For the next hard week I'd like to wish u all the best. Warm hugs! 

PS. I totally loved this song! I'm sure u must be feeling similar ^^

Here we go again

I'm just sending scanned files of my notes to my friend and I am finding a while to write here for u.
Well, the school has started and I can see I am really gonna have a lot of work this year if I want to reach something big after this year - I mean very good university.
I finally could meet all my super friends, hmm even more than the old ones :D
I met some new people which seem to be pretty nice. The old glances are alive again (but not the glances I wrote about a few months ago... They will never come back coz of a lack of the maker :( ).
We'll see what the time brings.
My driving licence? Well, I was lucky to get an awesome instructor by an accident; I am learning and having good time at once.
Today I really need to focus on my books which is gonna be a very tough experience... Wish me luck.

Later readers! xoxo

Aloha!

Wanna see "Ice Age 4 '' today with my mom aww^-^
My week has been kinda lazy but good anyway. This week is gonna be really busy: I got my driving classes, two visits at my doctors (counting a dentist :S), my friend is gonna come to my house. And after this week... school comes! Last year at high school, all the exams are coming... It's gonna be a  really hard year but after that... four months of holidays! Yupi. And the university then. :)
But now let's enjoy the last whiles of this summer :)

Have a good time!

Arctic Zone

Feels like I lived on the pole or like it was freezing cold winter :S For a week the weather reminds us that summer isn't forever. But I hope we'll get our sunny days back, at least till the school starts.

I noticed that it's really possible to forget. It costs a lot but after a few months we are able to go our own life with no bigger harm on our organism.

Driving is cool, I wish I could have my own car and be sitting there the whole day and night :) Maybe I was born to be a driver? Who knows.

I realised that since last year Example always reminds me of holidays and summer. When I listen to them I got on my mind all the situations that happened last summers. So much memories...

Following a trip to USA

I didn't know of existing a website flightradar24.com which is amazing! There I can check what an airplane is flying above my head in the sky or I can follow an airplane where is someone I know. I enjoy it a lot! I love runnning outside, shouting of what plane is exactly in the sky above my house - just like it was with a flight from London to Rzeszow right now  :D

August has come, my driving licence is being done, Olympic Games in London are lasting. Not much time, but so much things to do.

Thinking that I'm already better at forgetting some things which are destroying me.

Getting ready for practical classes of driving.

Wish u all the best for the time being :)

Helplessness

I had no strength to write here for last week but I can see so many visits of u on my blog so I decided to make a new post.

I felt and still feel awful, knowing here's nothing to do but just feeling unable to forget it all.

Days are hot, friends are cool. 

But this is not enough for me. This is not what I really need.

A sad reflection

I noticed that here are days when even after waking up in my head there's only this one thought: how it could be if One was closer and thinking what to do to make it happen. Then my mood is very melancholy and sometimes there's a smile on my face when I got reminded some beautiful situations I had with One...
I do already know what school One will be at and where One will be. My destiny for next year: get to the same place...
Is it sick? I think so.
I just can't get One out of my head... I really tried. It's been almost three months since there was nothing I could do coz for this time I saw One just a few times.

Somewhere I read that usually this feelling is like an addiction. Yes, it is. Believe me.

I must be more careful not to lose my mind.

Hah, One also likes Shakira...

Hi guys!!

Today I had an amazing day with my friends. I can tell for sure that I'm very lucky always to know wonderful, valuable people - trust me, I'm honest. I don't know how I deserved for this...

My holidays seem to be astonishing, so far. Hope it will stay this way till the end of August... :)

Later!

Holiday

So Euro2012 is gone, Spain won! :) Even though it was kinda boring game, I must admit. Spain was playing as perfect as it always used to. But it would be nicer if Italy would get at least one goal... And I'm really sorry about Italy, in fact. They were horribly sad, were even cryin'. I'm not sure if u know what the italian coach did - after every match he visited one of the sanctuaries close to Cracow - where their team had been staying. He wanted to thank to God for getting so far and ask for more help. That's so nice!:)

Now we are waiting for Olympic Games in London next month. So bad EURO is over anyway;/ But it's possible that maybe in 20 years we will be a host of such an event again :)

Really hot days are here... 35 celsius degrees each day! And they say it's gonna be like that till the end of this month...
Oh, a real hell...

As a memory - an anthem of EURO2012 in Poland and Ukraine...

Big Sunday

Today it's a day of a big match! Spain - Italy in the final of EURO2012, a match in Kiev. It's gonna gonna be a big event! I was so happy last Wednesday, at half to midnight, when Spain got a chance to play today. After more than 120 mins of game... It was very late and I had to wake up early next day but sure I must have watched it till the end. And it was absolutely worth of it.
But my bets that I made at the beggining of the Euro weren't good coz I said that in the final there would be Spain and Germany... But, unexpectacly, Germany lost their game with Italy... Balotelli the champion :)
But with all my heart I will be supporting my lovely Spain today. Let's hope they will keep their cup from last years :)

But today it is also an anniversary: one year ago I saw SCORPIONS live! That was such an amazing experience... Wish I could see them one more time in my life...

Listening to my dear band and watching the match, I leave u with a hopefully song :)

Summer time

Can't believe the holidays are really almost here... It's gone so fast! Thank of God, my grades are good so I'll  enjoy this free time even harder.
The weather for last week was really hot - about 33 celsius degrees every day. It got really annoying and tiring in the end.;/ Thankfully, now it's a little bit better - about 27 C degrees. Although... much better.

Yesterday I was sunbathing while cutting the grass. And later I was watching the match Spain-France. And I'm happy that la furia roja won!:)
Anyway, we can't forget that Poland (and even Ukraine!...) is beyond the EURO cup... :( It's not as cool to watch the matches now as it was when Poland was still in the game...

But we've got the last week of the Cup so let's enjoy it anyway! All the people say they love our country and, especially the Irish men - Polish girls :D People from Ireland had a placard with a designation: "Look for a husband? Come and talk to us"... xD

Waiting for the official final of the school year, watching the matches, I want to wish all of u a blessed, good days! :)

Heya!

Hi, what's up, guys? I'm having pretty perfect time here. It was long weekend here (from Thursday). On Friday it was the opening match of Euro 2012 in my sweetest Poland!♥ With huuuge emotions I was watching match Poland - Greece. First half was so amazing! In second half boys were kinda tired but not so bad as well. Can't wait to see next match with Russia... They want to do some demontrations in Warsaw... I hope they are cultural...

The match on Friday lasted from 6 to 8 pm and at 8pm I supposed to be on my friend's party. In fact all of us were late coz of the match :D But the party was amazing! I met some new people, some relations I refreshed... Ah a few people are really nice :) I was home 5:30 in the morning but in fact I didn't feel I needed so much sleeping. Indeed I slept only 6 hours and felt ok :)

Today next family party. I tried to study but not much I could do... :D
Yesterday match Portugal - Germany, today Spain-Italy. All watched by me of course :D Can't wait to comment on all of them tomorrow at school with my friends :)

Take care! :)

More stuff to do

I feel I need to have more work! This weekend has been pretty laborious and that's super fine. Also I regulated my minds finally. And I must admit that the thing which helped me with it was harder trusting God... So easy but u know... the easiest solutions always apear as the last ones :)
I will see what life brings, I need to enjoy every while like it was my last one.

I know I change my mood very often but at least u, readers, aren't bored, I guess... :D

Have a perfect time :)

It's too hard

I just feel I will never get over it...
Today instead of coming and talking to One I couldn't even stand up from my chair. I felt my face was getting red and my pressure went high. But I couldn't do a movement. Not even one!
I don't know how I'm gonna live now. I wish I felt just nothing. It is all too painful. I'd love just to write to One and talk to. But how? How can I be sure One likes me at all? Maybe all those things I saw were just unreal, all and only imagined by me?
Gosh, why it's so hard for girls? We shouldn't show our feelings too much ;/
Now I really can't talk and hang out with other boys and start to I understand why I'm not totally interested in them. Coz of One.
Two years - I think it's enough to be sure all I wrote.

Life sucks.

Tough coming back to normalcy

Well, still trying to take it off my head but it's still not that easy. And it's totally not normal that it lasts so long. Anomalously long... Afraid of thinking what it means...
I'm having much of studying and much other things to do but still keep coming back to this mind!

Yeah, it's really much of learning here. When I look at my books, at once I do much different things except using those books...

The weather doesn't seem to be springer one at all. Maybe that's the reason of my mood. But maybe this is not?...

Totally confused...

Today happend something completely unexpected... While going to my locker after my lessons I saw one... The glance I was talking about I would miss was there between us... And when I was coming to the front door we shared that moment again... One was looking at all the time!
And sure there was a huge amusement in me. But about 10 minutes later, when I had already left school, I felt nothing...
I don't understand it! Did I just accept the fact that it was over? And it is done for me? Or maybe I'm just more carefull...
I can't justify it by using anything. Looks like I need to think about it again...

But, btw - for sure nothing more will happen so there's no worry :/

REally gonna do scrambled eggs now!

Sad reality

Today it was a class trip, later some hanging out with my friends.  And coming back home. And the one thought in my head... Everywhere, especially while talking to my friend about her relationship.
And the awful feeling there's not much left I can do about it.
School's tomorrow. And lessons when I'm sure I won't meet anyone special. At least not THIS one. While on Tuesday I always used to meet One at most.
Trust me, I tried to live my life alone again but I just can't. I don't know how long it is going to take me to have a clear life situation back. Just like 2 years ago...

Don't know what to do. Only wanna sing the songs like my last cover (which is placed below, in last post).
But know I need to have a smile glued to my face and be cheerful like I was even better than fine.

Take care, readers. Hope ur life looks brighter now.

New cover

Hi!
Today I made a  cover of Three Doors Down's song named "Here Without you".  It perfectly describes my mood and my feelings.
Wish someone could see this...
Yes, there's a dedication hidden between the lines.

Enjoy.

Long weekend replaced by normal weekend...

Back from the City. Need to prepare to school, for Monday. But it was really super nice there!  I was with my sis in so many places... Yeah, my feet kinda hurt but I'm glad of how it was there:)
I made a few new decisions (woah, it sounds so serious :D) that I would like to live by for next weeks.

Tomorrow sunbathing.

Have fun!:)

New month

Hi!

Yesterday I finally bought a dress for the wedding! It looks perfect; is dark orange with black elements... I love it. High heels, dark bag and my outfit is done.
It's still long weekend lasting here so for next three days I'm moving to the capital city of my province. I'll take a breath from all the problems, I guess...

Have a good time, take care readers!

Um

Well, on Friday I was completely depressed. That's why I didn't write anything. Yesterday - a bit better, I think that I even caught my distance for it. Today... I think that I will rather try again, even though succeeding will be a miracle...
Hope dies as the last one. But do ur best and use all ur chances that u've got before it's to late...

Tic tok...

Just two days to the deadline! I don't know what I will do if God doesn't help me with it...

Completely desperate!

Some fun^^

I've downloaded my new singing-video.

Sure, it's not perfect, but hope u enjoy it anyway :D

Easter's gone and I didn't put on weight at all! Yeah! I ate only three slices of cheesecake yesterday and today not even more. But I think I got closer to God - and this is why these holidays are for, so I'm happy.:)

After a week of tiding and preparing food for Easter time (I must show off! I made one cake! :D), I finally need to find the time for doing all my homework that teachers gave me, thinking that I have sooooo much free time while holidays... -.-

So school's in two more days - meeting friends is coming! :)

Have a good time!

The Great Week

So Easter is about to come... My school is gone for a week so that I could focus on more spiritual things:)
Last two weeks that I had were really busy but also full of episodes! One person again came back to my area and is disturbing me in making all my plans come true... It is just distracting me and making me don't know anymore if I really want my plans to be fulfilled or this is not what I really want to be...
I wish time could help with solving all those problems!

After about 3 sunny and warm weeks, it turned into rainy and cold days... Except today's one sunny day, Easter is going to be cold :(

Wish u and ur family all the best for the Great Holy Time! Use this time for being more connected with the Lord:)

Omnommom

Seems like again I was very bad at writing here:/ Sorry but it's still hot time for me.
Beside studying, I could notice that the spring has started. It is super nice warm and sunny. Great time to be thinking about the future and just be thinking positivively.:)
By the way - I visited my hairdresser coz I needed to cut the ends of my hair and also I wanted to have made a fringe but... the hairdresser dissuaded me doing that. Anyway, I need to have hair a little bit longer for the wedding I'm going to in only two months!...

Some other things: I noticed that when I finally decide for something that for months I have been having given on a silver plate - then it flys away and I have to do some effort to get it back for good...
Time will help.

Warm hugs!

So tired!...

Guys, I know I've been so bad in blogging during last two weeks... :( But trust me that it was really hard time for me, and still will be - till a week later. I had my exams and am still having some current tests as well...
But don't worry, I'll be ok. :)

I just wanted to tell u what's up and tell u that I think life is sometimes sad, but if we look around, we'll find it's very favorable for us:) So if anything is wrong over there (I hope it's not!), try to think of some other things, go  in for something different  and everything will be ok!:)

Good luck! xoxo

School - here we go!

So this longed for time has finally come!...My feelings? Well, right now I again can perfectly understand why I hate so much any longer breaks at school.:( Sure I do want to see my dear guys, just those two weeks made me so lazy! and now I realise how little I did about my preparations for exams - for sure not even 1/4 of what
I had expected to do.:/ I won't have any other way so I will do it for those days that are coming but... I will need to work really hard, while I really could avoid it... Ahh it's all my bad!

Anyway, this evening I feel really horrible, I don't know why! Just about an hour ago such a bad mood caught me...-.-  Night is gonna help me about it.

One good information for today! I finally checked out the information about Coldplay's ending of career and... sure it was just a gossip! Ok, first Chris told that he was thinking about leaving the band but - thanks to God! - finally he said he wouldn't live without his friends from Coldplay! So sweet!♥
So even though I am not gonna see them this year in Warsaw (I still cry thinking about it ;((( ), I will have one - at least -  more chance to watch them LIVE! Yeah!

Sleep tight! xoxo

PS. Just in case u, Chris, needed a girl to marry - I'm urs!

Thursday

Oh guys! Today's day was so amazing! I spent it with my dear friend and had a really good time! Finally I felt kinda of the school's atmosphere :D
Today I also bought my first glasses ever! Ah, I just can't do nothing to stop having all around me red things... Yes, the glasses are red ^^ And so stylish!:)

Well, today I didn't have time for studying but yesterday I had and I studied a little, just like on Monday , Tuesday and Wednesday - as I promised to u! :)

School is coming!

Hope u r having a great time! xoxo

PS. I discovered this song (below) for new and I am totally crazy about one right now!
Btw, he is so awesome♥

Half of the winter holidays

Umm first week has run away... And I didn't do anything - if we talk about learning.... But I did a lot about relaxing :D I feel horribly mad that I didn't move on with the preparations for my exams;/...
But I promise: tomorrow I'm starting it for good! Well, I have no other choice...:(

But all other things are ok. I even got an invitation for a weeding:) I need to find a partner for that day:)

I can't wait to come back to school and again see all those people... Ah... Just one week!:)

Take care :*

Hi!

So we've officialy started winter holidays. So nice! Today I didn't have lessons, just sleigh ride. It was truly
cold but also funny and awesome! I love my friends♥

I'm sure I will miss them for those two weeks but I need to focus on my exams that I'm having after the holidays. But I'm also gonna have fun during those weeks, of course :D

For now, I wanna be sleeping tomorrow very long. That are all my plans for now.

Hope u are doing great!:)

Waaaarm greetings!

Hi everyone!:)

Weekend has already gone, it's time to come back school. The last week before winter holidays.
I was thinking a little bit and I started wondering that probably I got wrong some situations that happend to me last weeks. Maybe in fact they seemed much different. Hmmm...I am gonna check it out as soon as I can.

Kamil Stoch again won today! :D He is awesome! I love u, Kamil!♥ Furthermore, Justyna Kowalczyk - so did she... We've got so wonderful sports contestants! Ok, maybe except football players.... No comment!...

Wish myself my next post was more exciting:)
Take care!
  xoxo

First post in February!

Hi guys! :)
I feel like that week gone by fast and didn't bring anything new, at least - anything good. I can clearly see that when we plan something awesome to happen, it doesn't happen at all. If we don't - it's more probable to happen. So I just need to trust Someone and believe that it's similar on the other side...
The one positive thing is that I'm perfectly sure of what I do want.

Last week: some tests; next week: some tests as well, but after that: two weeks of winter holiday!:) How cute♥
For now, I need to survive freezing cold that is still almost killing us (right now it's -26C degrees...) and finally get some sleep this night.
Have a good time, readers! :)

The end of the first month in this year...

I've got such melancholic mood right now:./ It might be because of  that I'm listening to James Morisson at the moment but also because I see that nothing changes in my life for better. I watch other people around me go on, their lifes expand for better ones while my exsisting... Ah, I know, I need to trust God and expect that my happiness will show up soon. Just James makes me so sad:/

It's freezing cold muuuuuucho! It is gonna be about -18 centigrade during the day this week... Honestly... I wish our winter holidays could be now, not only in two weeks:/ I don't really know how I will be getting to school in such weather...

I shouldn't be writting now. Really hard time for me.
Hope u're doing better.
xoxo

The post has been removed by ACTA

Sure, it's just a joke:) At least for now... In the Internet there are very hot discussions about ACTA! How is it gonna be? Does that mean that I won't be able to post here photos or videos? It's so dumb! ;/ Sorry! This just isn't smart. I must be careful... ACTA agent's will be watching us everywhere. But still we all can do something about it. Again I'll remind u link by using which u still can help to stop this: http://americancensorship.org/modal/state-dept-petition/index.html .

Let's hope THEY care of our statements...
xoxo

Yay!

Today it was horror again! Poland-Sweden match. After first half of game it was 20:9 for Sweden. After the whole match - 29:29! Poland scored 20 goals while Sweden only 9 in second half! Woah, I almost bit my fingers...
Unfortunatell, today in Zakopane Kamil Stoch was only 7th, but he is still gorgeous!
And Justyna Kowalczyk - polish ski runner - won with Marit Bjoergen! Yeah, it was an amazing sports weekend :D

Tomorrow I need to spend more time learning... Haha, I swear I'll do my best ^^

xoxo

Friday again!

The whole week has (again) gone by so fast! Anyway, since last Friday we've got snow! It's kinda 'wow', cause we've already been thinking that it wasn't gonna appear this winter. This afternoon it has been snowing a little bit as well and now, when I look outside, it's so nicely white! All of the trees and ground are covered with the white fluff :)

Yesterday I was very emotionally experiencing The 2012 EHF European Men's Handball Championship which is  held in Serbia - the match Poland-Denmark. Actually, it was freaking awesome! Polish guys are really awesome! Last as cliffhanging match as yesterday's one I was watching about 2 years ago. Ah, nope, all of their matches are such great events! And it's so nice when the coach and the boys pray before the game and in  some important situations...:)

Poland - team


Today I was watching Ski jumping contest in Zakopane and Kamil Stoch phenomenally won! In his own hometown (alright, he was born in a city some kilometres further :D ). Like one year ago... Ah, the next contest tomorrow!♥
I do really love watching sports! Especially when I can watch there my favourite competitors!

I'm truly proud of being a Polish!:)

Kamil Stoch

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Go and confirm!

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Fight for our rights!

2012

So it's New Year. Yay, so fast! I need to pull up together after last night! No, it wasn't alcohol - I'm not adult yet:) - I just need to sleeeeeep! Btw, tomorrow I've got Geography test... No problem, just relax girl! (sure!:/)
Do u guys do New Year's determinations? Did u use to do it?
Coz I didn't really have time to think about it.
But last year was pretty good: first year in high school with really good grades (I might seem to be kinda selfish right now :D), I bought my second, electro-acustic guitar, which I'm proud of!, I started working out and I do it till now, I refreshed contacts with some of my old, good friends and I also met a few new really nice people. Woah, I think it really wasn't a bad year:)
How will be this year for me? I hope I will pass my driver's licence and start hard preparations for my final exams in 2013...

Wish u reached all of ur destinations in 2012! :))

P.S. I don't really listen to metal or hard rock a lot. But this one is just WONDERFUL!